needed...

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I need someone to support now.
I need someone to care now.
I need to be more independent now.
I need a shoulder to lye on now.
I need someone to make me smile always.
I need someone to understand me.
I need someone to love.

76th post ;)

爱、不完美

不再痛。。不痛

有个人...

我希望,深夜时, 有个人会提醒我别熬夜

我希望, 当我无助时,有个人会伸出手让我牵着走

我希望,当我想放弃时,有个人会跟我说 "别!我会支持你到底!"

我希望, 当我想哭时, 有个人会把肩膀给我靠

我希望, 当我抱怨生活时, 有个人会静静地听我说

我希望,当我迷失自己时, 有个人会把我拉回来

我希望, 当我伪装到忘了自己时, 有个人会说 " 别装了...你也应该累了吧,做回自己吧!"

我希望,当我被欺负,有个人会站出来保护我

我希望,当你有困难时,第一个想起的会是我

朋友,那个人会是你吗?  <3

梦想,因你世界变得如此的漂亮!

梦想，每一个人都有。

梦想，都是人们的目标。

梦想，因它每个人都在奋斗。

梦想，就因为不切实际才刺激。

梦想，让人生活变成彩色。

梦想，为了它不管遇到别人的嘲笑，挫折，失败
我们还是会努力。

人因梦想而伟大！


但往往现实就是那么残忍。

梦想，变得好遥远。

梦想，就渐渐的埋到那人的心里最低处。

然后就忘了当初是为了什么而奋斗，而努力。

忘了有梦想的生活，忘了自己打拼是为了什么？

有了物质上的享受，就没了心灵上的满足。。





给所有在努力的人： 梦想不分年龄，勇敢的去追你们的梦，别把它遗忘了，让嘲笑过你梦想的人看你的成就，坚持是唯一能达到你的梦想！

73th post ;)

真相

我看起来没烦恼,
其实脑里,心里都有千百个问题.


我看起来很轻松,
其实我心里的压力你们可想象不了.

我看起来很多话讲,
其实我很害怕寂寞.


我看起来很粗心大意,
其实我很害怕失去.


我看起来很爱开玩笑,
其实认真的我很恐怖.


我看起来很爱笑,
其实我在掩饰心里的无奈.

别太关心我, 我不想依赖任何人.

72th post ;)

学到了。。。

勉强不来的东西就不别硬来，
不会有好结果的。


得不到的东西就别硬要，
不会开心的。


做不到的东西就别承若，
会让人失望的。

不会的就别装聪明，
笨的还是自己。


坚强不了就别逞强，
受到伤害还是自己。


请爱自己多一点。 ;)

71 th post

我的感受谁能明白?

原来最亲的家人都会有不帮你的时候,
原来想找个信得过的人谈谈都难,
原来遇到困难时,身边的人都会加一脚给你,
原来我是那么的苯,
原来这是个现实的世界.

我想要得你们给不了,要求不高但给不了,
至少也关心一下,
至少也问候一下,
至少搞清楚状况在来责怪人,
至少让我觉得没被遗忘,
至少说些善意的谎言,别让我酱快看清你们的真面目,
至少让我活在快乐一点的世界.


70th post. ;)

BUSY MONTH

sorry for not posting anything for few weeks..quite busy recently..

uni life..yea..life..still go on

maybe after all those presentation finish i will be free to update my blog..

btw, im start loving my group mates. mainly SUSHI~ rmb how we first met? aww...

!st presentation done quite well...although i know that my voice is shivering a bit..nervous thou~

and THANKS to sushi for the slide show! is so DAMN AWESOME~!

after presentation is photo session! HAHA! have so much fun while take photo will those silly people! i <3 u all so much! XD

fooling around ..but so fast sem 1 gonna end...altough we met in a short period but i hope we will be in the same class for the next sem!! FOR THE WHOLE YEAR!

here are some photo~
more silly photo will be in my FB~

伤害了,可以忘吗?

和谐真得那么难吗？我累了。。不想在跟你们吵了。
你们想怎样就怎样吧。。不想在这种生活环境里了。。
自私自利，不要为别人而付出，互相推卸责任。。让我厌倦了。。
逃避是唯一的出路
也许我应该学会沉默。学会无视他们的存在。。
你们又再一次让我失望。。

对！你有你的道理，但我也有我的道理。不是每一次你都是对的！请认清这一点！

有时你所谓的道理是无理！ 

人不是完美的。你不了解我的个性。。我明白。。18年在一起的生活不长也不短。。
我不想要麻烦人，也不想人家带麻烦给我。


你们已经设定了一个角色给我。。那我在怎么的努力你们都看不到！
请想想为你付出过的人。。你也要为这家庭付出啊！就算一丁点也好！
我想讨厌你..却因为你我是兄妹..请相信我: 你还是在依赖我们的...你应该去尝试一个人在外独立的感觉..
 好心永远没有好报的。。

我终于发觉----我选择的每一样东西,甚至选择的未来.你们都没支持过..连一句称赞都没有过...
我真的无言了!

你们给了我一个很深的烙印..! 谢谢!

ANGRY BIRD~

 

is super duper wanted a angry bird plushie! why is so hard to get one! T^T

they are sooo CUTE! want to squeeze them so much! xDDD

and i want the green pig also! seem that im so greedy,huh?
i cant wait to get one!! oh god,im seriously want to go shopping!
THEY ARE SO FLUFFY!
haha..u all gonna be in my bedroom soon!
BUT, if tang sook kuan saw this post and she want to buy ALL for me..i don mind d~hor..sook kuan? xD

Love,

Chervie

practical,assignment exam! u gonna be killing me! ish ish!

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BBQ part was awesome! CHOO KUEN WEI! it;s really nice! don blame urself that it's failed~x)
fooling around with the gang was soooo DAMN fun! i miss it so much!
but the most funny thing happen ,..everything is ready but we don have the BBQ STAND! LOL! we try to call everyone we know but seem that is so hard to get one. so we decided to go WEI CHING house..

when i reach at her house my eye is like WIDE OPEN!
we have been friend for so long and i don;t know u have such a BIG house! 
we went to terrace and BBQ~
it was AWESOME!

we totally had so much fun!


btw, me and cheah soon like two idoits finding way back to usj jus for his phone! u own me once! xD

oh ya..my driving still not so good yet..so if u have the guts to put ur ass on my car then GOOD LUCK~

<3 my friends so much!
oh ya! need to say SORRY to kevin they all! i didn mean not to join ur outing! >

sorry~still don have picture to load! is on the wayy at my fb!

Uni life!

i love my uni friends a lot! <3
now week 4..started to tag around~know more people at uni! i hope i can throw my shy-ness away and enjoy uni life!

the crazy gang at uni make my day full of laughter! thanks a lot!
btw..i don have money to treat u all sweet d...im BROKE! haha!

btw..talent night is awesome la~a lot of LENG ZAI! <3

oh ya! i miss my girls so much! i hope we can meet out and talk! i don't want our friendship ended like this!
rmb WE SHOULD TALK MORE LE!!OR not later nothing to gossip d~ 

累了。倦了。

是时候放手了。。
我宁愿做那个坏人。 。
我配不上你。。也猜不透你。。

说分手的人也会觉得痛。。

别以为他们无情，

那个无奈没人会明白。

new life

I GONNA START MY NEW LIFE FROM THIS SECOND

THANKS AND GOODBYE TO YOU~! 

Let go is the smarties choices...i wont be so easily fall in again~

had a GREAT birthday! thanks guy! love u all so much!

i apperciate every single things u all do it! all those who wish me! THANKS A LOT~

i really had a different 18th birthday! Im proudly to said IM OFFICIALLY 18! LOL~

thanks thanks!

为我们的梦想前进！

　别再犹豫了拉~

back to the times

hm~GOSH ! i love my high schl friend! and I MISS THEM SO MUCH! they are d BEST~

haha~i think almost  a week we as in me and my tew buddy..left one too far d so cant join us!
we will went to old town at night for gossip and play! as in few guy work there so make old town more noisy!
but we get so benefit over there too! xDDD
it's so DAMN FUN! LOVE my friends so muchhhh!

today went back to high school with my buddy tang sook kuan! as i 6 in the morning crawl up from the bed waited for her..went back to school give me another feeling..
as a ex-student back to school make me kinda look grow up~x)
haha! *dunno pround about what* ==

than we went for breakfast~ahh..so long didn't enjoy with my friend already... then went back to school
me get said by teacher who wear short to school..i like..
TEACHER SHE SAID I CAN WEAR IT! if the ppl here throw me out she will BACK UP me!
teacher like..ok ok la..but u  don walk anywhere later let the dicipline teacher saw..
than when she call me go to toilet or walk around i will shout : TEACHER SAID I CANNOT RUN HERE AND THERE LA~ xD
she like..haiya..come la..since when u so good hear teacher advice d..i laugh at her.!
oh..i really miss them so much!
i hope we wont loss contact!

LOVE,

 chervie

chervie poon! where's all ur stupid brave go? DAMN MYSELF! why cant i just accpect the facts! go to do something that you haven't try before! BE BRAVE MAN! you're 18 years already! T___T ( fail number 1)

speechless with my own attiude~oh man, it;s time to try new things. it's time to move forward. look back flash back..what have i done to make myself proud? NO.! NOTHING!    ( failed number 2)

gosh! it;s time! u're going to university..and no joke! U must work harder than others! SPM it's just a stupid damn result only!  yes yes..i work very hard for this exam,so i will get this result! but uni is differnt .CHERVIE,u must know!

yes! im afraid of going in to uni! im afraid of going to the JOB! but do i have choices? NO! living is this world you cant say a word and just keep on FIGHTING! LOSE in the war?! nahh! just get up and fight again! this call LIFE!

let's talk about others! hmmm~ i tought i can have a best best rest within these month..but look like nope! i really didn expect to work! but than yea! LIFE IS UNEXPECTABLE!~

hais..yes yes ! i know ! don't let other look down me! DON'T YOU DARE TO LOOK DOWN ME! yup..!just go on ~

p/s: this is for brain-washing me~yes..i hope it success to wash wash my brain

just simply add one photo!xDD~

SPM result!

oh gosh! spm result is finally out!
10.30a.m----> sitting inside the school waiting for result!
my heart is like bitting so fassttt~ gish..almost got heart-attack!
finally teacher annouced finish those straight A's students and it;s time for us to take our result!

wait until my turn..
teacher: AHH! yours science get A..congrats! than she give me the result
me: har?! 
don  dare to take result!
after that me and my sot po (sook kuan) =D
me: come on! die than die la..let's see!

after that...1..2...3..4.....8! 8 A's!!! haha~i shout like this at school>>>  

haha~mostly those parents are looking at me..! oophs~ hehe~

what can i say?! i count and count! confirm! xD damn happy wei~
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after that..hmph..countless of advise to which college..make me headache~
confuse me~ make me wanted to crash myself!  






but lots of hour hours later..i finally can make some decision!~
at least im okay and my daddy is okay with it!

relief so much! hope i can achieve anything that i hope for!
pray for me!

oh ya! CRY is the most better way to release out those stupid emotional!

playing with editing photo..haha..

i really nothing to do right now~so upload some picture la

just edited~ look vintage right? haha xD..loveee it so much~

it's make me feel's good after looking it!

one word "BE STRONG" although is the last one standing ! we as the age of 18 must be strong to go on the road in the future!

me me me~

hi~it's me again~
oh gosh~of cause is me la..my blog mah~

haha..just dye my hair a few day ago..erm..look like nothing change like that~
photo time~

cny photo time!

time to load some of photo taken during cny at sibu..erm..jus a bit only la~

 oh ya..after seeing finish this photo u will found out that something wrong with my eye!

not looking d camera..out of  focus..i also dont know why~ T,T

  

  

 cosuin again~

cute little fellow~

CNY,sibu

celebrate cny at sibu..i will miss those moment and memories that we make together..

it so fun over there..
the 1st 3 day watch movie..all most all those movie let us watch finish d..
mostly i will miss my cousin..i really cant imagine if there are not here..
we have been so close together/..
someone had become mature
someone always been so good to me..

i really loveee them so muchhh!

cut short my word..back to kL.
suddenly just feel so lonely..so queit..
that why i hate it when wanna go back..
gosh..don like those feeling..

back for holiday~

come back for CNY holiady from ns~
the 1st week in ns:

the 3 and 4th week: 
[ for my friends in ns lah]


i found out that the trainer at the camp have 2 faces
they can be very funny with u than later they will be very fierce to u..
what can i do~?!

FOR A MONTH..i have a good relationship with my friends already! i m so happy..
okay ..till here only..2moro going back to sibu d..chervie poon ..have fun o!

national services

okay from tomorrow onward i will not..oophs.is not will is cannot update my blog.facebook or msn
because i going to national services ..Gosh! i will so scare and excite~


pack my things already.i hope i did not forget anything~

great..i don really know how to survive inside with all the physical activities..and now i just need to wait for chinese new year and i can come back d! woots~
jus for few week~ i hope i can meet lots of friend!!! be brave,man chervie!

okay...bye everyone..we will meet after march~